these days by nico

these days i am so effing bored with my life.

korean music soothes me.
it always makes me feel like im in that world of korea where its all about the natural look, love is so pure and fun, and everythings so clean and sterile.
but i need goldfrapp,black keys,blacklips, little joy and so onn to remind me that im still the girl who had obsessions with bands like the horrors which has nothing to do with korean music.

still trying to find that missing piece but maybe im trying too hard. everytime i see an opportunity, i let it pass right by my big nose. i dont know whats wrong with me and why i find it so damn hard to just.....ugh.
i should just let it find me and come to me on its own time but i dont have time for this bullshit! time is flying by way too fast! hurry the hail up!

i wish i had more freedom from my unreasonable parents. i've never done anything considered bad. they never let me make mistakes and learn from them. im being sheltered in front of my very eyes and i cant do anything about it. i wish i was more rebellious and i know im cabable of it but another part of me asks why go through the trouble you know your mom can change into the scariest mofo alive. i swear if i lived in db my parents wouldnt give two shits about my whereabouts when i go out but its the exact opposite with walnut.-_- i can never hang out with my walnut friends without planning out a whole damn escape plan and making sure the days foolproof from my mom getting pissed at me for some irrational reason.

I AM SO BORED. theres no one to talk to, no one to text, no one to hang out with. or thats how i feel. prove me wrong?
im gonna make some dumplings now and watch catch me if you can.
maybe i should run away at 16 and take on some fake identities just so i can leave the house.