Friday, September 25, 2009

fresh and easy

the only things im looking forward to as of now.
karans house then fresh.
yes!

and sorry bud but im a party pooper
no!

Monday, September 21, 2009

september 21

is cursed.
this is possibly the worst day in all my 15 years.
i've never had a day like this before

in chronological order:
-wake up late 6 minutes late
-bathroom light dont work
-whole army of ants are on the counter
-on my .
-poked my eyeball with my mascara
-eye kept pouring tears like niagra falls so i had to wipe everything off and start over
-mom makes breakfast with too much onion
-me&vanessa got in trouble by dicks who said we were being rude for talking while the fundraiser guy was there when i look around and all 60 other kids are busy sleeping/talking. he calls US RUDE as he lifts his fat sausage finger to point at us which is probably the most exercise he got all month, and interrupts the fcking guy to call us all the way down to call us rude and send us back to our seats. FATASS FLOOP just looking at you every morning pisses me off.
-now me&vanessa cant sit next to each other during zero period, our only class together
-i leaked, luckily kane had some spankies
-changed into them feeling lucky and thinking that maybe the worst is over but then...
-i sit at lunch for a while argueing with eddie why the hail he wont get me my 5 dollar backpack in la
-i reach into my bag to check my phone
-no. fcking. phone.
-...of course.
-i bitch to everyone that i have lost my friggen phone
-spend lunch checking my locker,the bathroom,the grass behind where we sit but no phone
-ends up the glcs mr cassels had my phone WOOOOW. mr cassels and the one glc with the devils beard were standing in front of the girls bathroom the whole lunch. i dont really have a good rep with cellphones with mr cassels so i was kinda hesitant to ask him bout my phone but i was like oh what the fock might as well. so i describe my phone to them and mr cassels pulls it out of his pocket and gives it to me..after a long awkward lecture and his personal experiences about phones.
HALLELUJAH thank GOD for glcs..sometimes


this entry sucks ass but so did my day

Sunday, September 20, 2009

nails in your hand

what to say...
well im bored right about now, no ones really on and SEE mandy just signed off right when i wrote that. mmmm sang at church today for the first time and i guess it was okay. everyone was helpful and supportive. i dont think it was that nerveracking cause if you have the right mindset then its really alright. you just have to keep reminding yourself that its not for you its for God. when we were starting service i seriously felt a little naseous and i was gonna throw up a little but i didnt so i sucked it up and sang my little heart out. pastor yun said that when he heard me from outside he wondered who the black girl singing was HAHAHA i guess im just a little asian girl with a black womans voice, all those years of black people smooth talk with vanessa finally paid off.

church seems really empty even though im surrounded by over 50 students in youth group. i guess this means i miss crystal 지나 lee hehee =( umm after church i was taking the kim sisters home and we stopped by bobatime and moses,steven, and andrew came and then mikey came too. had some randomass conversations over pappingsoo. after i took karan to her casa so she could go to tutor then came home and
just found out that i have to rewrite my human geo essay cause its supposed to be handwritten MOTHER ESSHOLE!! maybe i'll rewrite it as i watch HOW I MET YOUR MADRE!!

i think i know what im gonna be for harroween.i really didnt know how to top unco same. my costumes gonna be easy as frickin pie to assemble. purple&green thats all i am going to say.
caroline park is out!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Thursday, September 17, 2009

lily...come on.

how i met your mother.
i can only say one thing..THAAAZ PURE GENIUS MANN!

i likey! i think the office is funnier and h.i.m.y.m (lol idk) is kinda too horny. neil patrick star harris aka barney's pretty funny that i almost forget hes actually gay. but ted&marshalls the funniest and lily's that girl from buffy the vampire slayer! i thought she was dead or something but nope
shank you jiyoung for lettin me borrow season 3, you wont be getting it back anytime soon SUCKKAA hehe jizzkiddingg..which reminds me..excuuuuse me but i would like it if THE DEWONG FAMILY would kindly gimmie back my dvds..or else the slapcountdown begins..BAHAHA


i am loving the homecoming drama! i dont even have to start watching the beautiful life or vampire diaries to get my fill on dramas cause theres so much goin on =)
i love well not LOVE but i like the period before homecoming where all the horny kiddos out there think up of something cuute and ask their mate to the dance teehee so yea good luck on that. id rather go to hc at db cuz they go somewhere else while walnut's is in the gym -_- but then we have sadies and winterformal so cant complain.
as foor me on homecoming, i am neutral. nobodys gonna ask me to begin with and i dont wanna spend all that nonexistent money i have.

i think im gonna need a tutor for chem but first somebody teach me how to jerk i mean study for human geo, its easy but im slowly failingggggg
i just downed a whole misubi as i finished that last sentence.

people actually buy unco same and unco chin's franco shade shit? HOHOHO!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

these days by nico

these days i am so effing bored with my life.

korean music soothes me.
it always makes me feel like im in that world of korea where its all about the natural look, love is so pure and fun, and everythings so clean and sterile.

but i need goldfrapp,black keys,blacklips, little joy and so onn to remind me that im still the girl who had obsessions with bands like the horrors which has nothing to do with korean music.

still trying to find that missing piece but maybe im trying too hard. everytime i see an opportunity, i let it pass right by my big nose. i dont know whats wrong with me and why i find it so damn hard to just.....ugh.
i should just let it find me and come to me on its own time but i dont have time for this bullshit! time is flying by way too fast! hurry the hail up!

i wish i had more freedom from my unreasonable parents. i've never done anything considered bad. they never let me make mistakes and learn from them. im being sheltered in front of my very eyes and i cant do anything about it. i wish i was more rebellious and i know im cabable of it but another part of me asks why go through the trouble you know your mom can change into the scariest mofo alive. i swear if i lived in db my parents wouldnt give two shits about my whereabouts when i go out but its the exact opposite with walnut.-_- i can never hang out with my walnut friends without planning out a whole damn escape plan and making sure the days foolproof from my mom getting pissed at me for some irrational reason.

I AM SO BORED. theres no one to talk to, no one to text, no one to hang out with. or thats how i feel. prove me wrong?
im gonna make some dumplings now and watch catch me if you can.
maybe i should run away at 16 and take on some fake identities just so i can leave the house.

Friday, September 11, 2009

SMALLNUTS WIN!

i dont have a twitter or anything so...
WALNUT WON WALNUT WON WALNUT WON!
yes i am going to type in the largest most obnoxious font i can find =)
score:20-44
i wasnt gonna go because of stupid korean tutor, but we were actually winning so at like 9ish i got to the game. still it was worth it cuz you know, we won. he he
couldnt get to the db side cuz of the bouncers blocking the gates but saw crystal&evelynn
damnabbit. i have to wake up early tomorrow for milal. im so excited for it but nervous, i hope i get a kiddo not an adult no offense.
now for a few parting words...
WALNUT WON! MUSTANGS ALL THE WAY

Thursday, September 10, 2009

busy,busy,busy

"if you find your life tangled up with somebody else's life for no very logical reasons," writes Bokonon, "that person may be a member of your karass."
quick! abandon your granfallooners and search for members of your karass!



get through one more day caroline
just one.

i find human geography quite impossible to study for, at least the book itself. theres no use for it unless youre able to read unorganized paragraphs after paragraphs of geographical mumbo jumbo.

i find myself worrying more about what im going to wear tomorrow than my chemistry test and human geo quiz.

i find joseph gordon levitt berry attractive when he's not in movies, stubby beard and all.

i find bobbypins everywhere ex:my shorts,my hair,bags,between books,falling out my locker. you name it,i find it!

i wish i could find myself sitting in my room, at my desk, pouring over my chem&human geo books in the next, oh say 3 minutes.

whats wrong with my lame pointless entries these days??

Saturday, September 5, 2009

holy calamity, scream insanity all you ever gonna be's another great fan of me,

BREAK!
aight lets start it off with a few questions

#1:
who are your okay friends, your good friends and your best friends?
just to be on the safe side
i will post my top 15
(not in any particular order)
the horrors,mandy ko,sam kim,crystal lee,karen chi,vanessa dewong,vivian lam,vivian dewong,kane sun,paige montojo,daniel park aka brother,julie keong,karan kim,ro zealand aka rosalyn lam, aaand katherine chung
BUT WAIT! there is more id like to add to that meaningless list
kathleen reichenberger
aaron phan
jiyoung han
evelyn na
katie moon
clara kim
judy lee
jenny cho
michelle park
michelle kim
moses kim
jay chong
josh chang
michael lee
any other church girl/guy i didnt mention
wynnie young
erica fan
jason adauto
allison wong! (NOT NO FRESHMAN ALLOWED. sehhhlom! <3) style="font-weight: bold;">would you rather eat a gallon of a dog's vomit or suck on someone's hairy, pimple infested, bug crawling foot?
this is sucha michael question
i would rather suck the foot...after shaving it and cleansing it and applying clean&clear and spraying some raid on that janky foot

#4
소원을말해봐~
HAHA 니 마음속에 있는 작은 꿈을 말해봐.
i wish i had the legs of girls generation

anyway oh how i love saturday mornings with no korean school whatsoever
i got a total of 220 buckaroos this week from my aunt and mom. 20 bucks from ma because of my 100% on my math test WOOT WOOT and 200 bucks from my aunt because they love me so. and i got two new favorite bracelets. its a studded leather strap that wraps around my wrist 3-4x LOVEEEEEE
for today i plan to watch some tv,do a little homework here and there. go surfin...on the internet while eating frosted flakes. and scour the kitchen for something to eat. long talks with friends.then off to see my baby nieces and nephews and cousins! yeaaah sounds good to me.
please do take me away somewhere to have some good ol fun



31st of August of 1994
the day the world ended.vanessa dewong was born.
hehe jaykay didnt do anything cuz she went to d-land with her fammy but we will eventually go bowling if its the last thing we do

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my pride & joy

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not ready.
vivian trying to be cute..barf
:D

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aw thats nice

i like yeah yeah yeahs new album

crabby caroline

now is not a good time to blog.
my night has been ruined by numerous reasons.
so im feeling like my girls debbie downer&negative nancy
i want to talk to someone right now though
someone who can deal with the side of me thats rude and melancholy.
i thought i found someone like that but once again im misled & disapointed. they werent there at the times i wanted them the most.
but im being unreasonable, i expect them to magically call me or something at the times i least expect it or worse, when i wish for it. sometimes they do but most times they dont. so you see, i like constancy.

unreliable. disloyal. faux.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

ashes ashes we all fall down

ashes are really grinding my gears right nah.
they keep flyin into my eye as if they belong there and THEY DONT CAUSE THEY HURT LIKE A MOTHERFOCKER. and i know my lungs have been seriously damaged..fine i wont be a dramaqueen, minor damage.
school is cool
and i'll leave it at that capiche?

anyways moving on to important worldy news...im getting so annoyed of jon from jon&kate+8. how much more selfish can he get?? even though kates sucha bitch, he was given the responsibility of 8 friggen kids and whether he wants to be or not he's going to remain their father for life so why abandon them at a time when they're at the peak of their childhood HAH? HAH?? ANSWER ME JON. enough with this "midlife crisis" you're not the only one going through this "phrase" but you're just going overboard. stop acting like you're in college again with your bimbo slut and take off your little diamond studs and do your part as a father.

answering time

#1
oh soo i have a crush on michelle park.. do u knw her? tell me about her yea?
oh gawd do i know michelle park? DO I KNOW MICHELLE....dont do it man dont do it! that little drum playin,guitar playin, some band instrument playin,basketball playin,blog addict girl with the silent laughter and natural double eyelids is so effing..











cool =)
but not really
but i mean its your choice...weirdo
hahha justkidding MICHELLES A SWEET THAANG, KINDA WEIRD BUT A SWEET THAANG. go flirt your ass off =)
and if this was michelle who asked the question, you're gay! hehehe

#3
how do you feel when people 'copy' you
"You know what? Imitation is the most sincere form of flattery, so I thank you."
-Dwight K. Schrute

i feel like i've been robbed...in a way. but its not like i dont copy others myself. i think everyones copied someone in someway at sometime. i just hate it when they copy it and dont even bother to change it up and add their own personal touch to it.

#4
what annoys you the most (to be specific, about BOYS)
mann i was thinkin of paige's voice during egyptian war but then you said about boys soo i dont really know what to say anyore HAHA justkiddin paige =)
lets see...uhhh i havent really thought about this afore hmmm i guess....well...hmm..well maybe..nahh..hmmm....i think for me boys are equally annoying as girls. by that i mean that it doesnt really matter what the gender is but boys and girls can share the same annoyances like..DUDE IDK...ok ok ok i got it. i'll be specific just for you.
but i just wanna add that i dont get annoyed very easily.
annoying things about boys:
-when they start talking to you via text or aim or whatever and they. wont. stop. talking.to.you.
(but some girls do that too)
-when they dont eensah (bow down) to my mom
-when they call me bitch but usually eddies the only one who says that. -_-eddie's ass <--*kick* -when they flirt with other girls at the same time they're flirting with me
-when they're hot as hail but they're taken as hail too
-when you start to like them and then cant stop thinking about them
-when they go for looks
-when they dont text back
thats all i can think of

#5 if you can become anybody you wanted to be [that you know], who would you be?
hmm thaz a good question
i think this question will compliment many people so get ready
sometimes i wish i was vanessa because her moms so chill and her eyes are so big and ethnic and her humors so contagious
sometimes i wish i was vivian because her personality is so good
sometimes i wish i was karen because shes so determined and stands for what she believes in
sometimes i wish i was crystal because she got hookups and connections and she has sucha outgoing and outreaching personality
sometimes i wish i was katherine because her family seems so perfect and shes so lovable and bubbly yet smart
sometimes i wish i was emily nakama cause shes so dang good at swimming and shes like born to swim
sometimes i wish i was vivian dewong cause she has the funniest personality and life is like a teenage movie with her
sometimes i wish i was mandy cause shes frickin smart and ballin and tall and skinny
sometimes i wish i was kane cause she has all this cute shit from taiwan and she dances oh so well
sometimes i wish i was one of the guys cause they can go out and hang out anywhere
sometimes i wish i was karan cause her view on life is so unique and her house smells like fresh laundry
sometimes i wish i was my brother because hes so friendly and makes everyone smile and his life is set
sometimes i wish i was julie cause her life seems so comfortable
alright im done
lesson here is caroline wishes to be alot of people
those were just some people that came to mind

#6
do you think youre pretty?
yeah im pretty.
pretty ugly.
weeeeell i try to be confident but not cocky.my self-esteem these days is at a solid 7 out of 10. during the summer it was like a 10 outta 10 but i think im over my shallow hal days and im trying to look at beauty as not just skindeep but you gotta have a beautiful soul!! listen to jesse mccartney guys, hes deep heh jk.

oh shit its 12:30 and i got zero period. PEACE OUT