moleskine

she turned out more like a transy


alice sitting


i was too scared to draw her face in



amature

brittany murphy

i'll always remember her as either Daisy from girl, interrupted or Molly from uptown girls
oh well life goes on...

acrylic nails and 6-inch heels

i want to go to the winter formal
that is all.

the end is never the end

since i decided to click "new post" i pretty much made it clear to myself that i was not going to do my chem homework tonight and thats final.

my mom just called from san diego aka the whales vagina to tell me that she left some galbi in the fridge, but no instead i headed for the pantry and opened up a can of kickass ravioli and stuck it in the microwave for 5 minutes. aaand you probably dont really give a shit right? haha that was pretty pointless to write but WHATEVZ MY BLOGSPOT.
so if you're wondering where in sam's hill i've been lately well hate to break it to ya but i havent been paartyin or doing something COOL instead i've been here aka in my little yellow cottage, livin it up,staring at the computer, procrastinating any shit related to academics, or at a polo game/practice. i've been mostly reading people's blogs rather than updating my own and left it to die. alas, i am back to feed this blog at least a good christmas meal. ho ho ho
aria picked me up from wp practice today and after tutor took me back home via her friends. i think i've directed people driving to my house like 5943059034 times since this month shit yo but honestly i like being drove around not worrying about gas or anything. plus i barely even know how to get to my own house and have to rely on familiar surroundings to guess my way around to me casa. HAHAHA i just remembered i couldnt even tell my right from my left when moses drove me. fuuck...
at this point i am feeling pretty relaxed knowing that tomorrows a mini-day and the last day before winter vacances, but im pretty stressed out at the thought that i'll be at school until at least 7 P.M for lo and behold, water fuckin polo. right, so honestly im not really LOVIN polo but i dont completely hate it either. im not getting a tan or losing weight but i am getting (hopefully) better at this sport and bondin w/ the girls and have the pride of being part of a team. still it has more negatives than ze postive:
(-)
-HELL WEEK DURING WINTER BREAK -i dont get to feel that satisfaction when the last bell rings
-i dont get to hang out with errrone after school in the front
-i dont get to just randomly head to the village or something
-i look like shit after i get out of the pool
-normal practices end at 4 usually
-i go home ready for a nap, not to start my effing homework and study
-right after i lost all those calories during practice, i devour enough food to feed africa
-i have wet towels and a suit when i come home and i have to wash or dry it everyday
-fridays and saturdays are taken over by tournaments
-game days go till 6
-no time for boys and all that fun stuff
-im tired as hell
-i suck at wp and i dont think coach cindy even sees potential in me
-im not aggressive enough for this damn sport
-the opposing team always have the heftiest girls i've ever seen
-even if we end early when school lets out, i look like shit anyways and lose my confidence to talk

(+)
-lunch on block day wednesday is chillllllll cuz after the bell rings i take my sweetass time getting to the pool
-after 5th period i roam around
-when i dont swim, going out with vivian and her audi to get boba or have a 5 minute sleepover or something
-team sweaters and shit
-hanging out with the girlys
-i can label myself as a jock even though im really not, im probably either a cool asian or an art freak...or desperate wannabe
-the exhilaration when you swim your first 25 and its super fast

so i ordered my backpack and accidentally chose priority shipping so it came in like 3 days. i am a dumbass, from 6 to 10 dollars?? ugh..but whatever im glad it came, its pretty good quality and im excited to wear it out. im tempted to wear it tomorrow to school, but i wanna save it till when school starts again to go along with the whole new year, new bag, fresh start blah blah blah my current bag is too big and im tired of carrying this brown piece of poop. theres a hole in the lining and i lose everything small enough to go through the hole. and it smells like octopus cuz it got wet from the last game -_- but overall its a pretty good bag for a forever21 bag. you've been good, bag.

i ate my ravioli, but i want some galbi now. frickk i didnt even shower yet, yeah im that gross. i smell like pure chlorine. augh i hate getting into the shower, everyday i dread that 15 minutes in the shower, but after i feel fresh as a daisyy and ho happy jackie. its already 9:18 but i guess i'll shower then make some galbi and watch some tv and then clean my room up and get ready for l'ecole. fuckin hate school, i cant handle the repetition.

one thing that annoys me is when people dont know when to stop, geez i know we're just fucking around but there's a point when it gets too rude. and dont you get that im trying to change it up?? frick..

i think im going to enjoy winter break, but im not sure if i want the new year to come. im actually pretty scared for it, but im looking forward to my daydreams coming true haha i guess i'll welcome 2010 with open arms
cheers.

QT

cutest video i've seen in a long time.
i miss my niece and nephews

hybernation

gettin fat for the winter with



and those round asian yellow cookies with white frosting drizzled on top that everyone loves but doesnt know what they're called

nothing big happening so i'll leave it at that.

All I want is the best for our lives my dear

Gratitude
one thing im positively thankful for is Beirut
i go to him when i wanna get away from the "good vibes" overplayed again and again. im still waiting for the day when i'll hear nantes on the radio, but for now im thankful that there is still hope for this thing we call music.

-God in my life
-family
-friends and lovers
-church
-school
-prosperity
-health
im thankful

Love
everyone around me seems to be having relationship problems..honestly im not one to be giving advice but i try my best to help resolve issues in any way possible. if you do end up asking me to play oprah you should expect the most blunt insight from me so in the words of Chance from I Love New York, "dont cry dont cry". LOL but seriously these difficulties are inevitable come relationships, and they wont just go away so its better to face your demons together and be brutally honest. it'll hurt to try but at least it'll induce a more faster resolution so you guys can be lovebirds once again and make everyone throw up with your pda =)

people keep saying that if you stop looking, love will find you. i've been complying with this for months now, even years but gaad some guys just lack the initiative to do shit. why do i have to do all the work?? hehe OMIT

School
i cant take school seriously. omg i've been staring at the word school for so long that its starting to look weird. but yeah i cant wait till college when i'll be more free and it wont be so damn routine.

swagger

i fall in love everyday
like the raspberry strudels i just found on my kitchen table that looked so unappetizing and cheapo but when i bit into its sugary goodness..yeah i fell in love
and like HIM with his smile that can light up this whole town but i havent seen it in a while since she brought you down HAHA i soo didnt mean to quote taylor swift right thurr but whateves, gotta put silva's quote integration skills to use somehow.

hmmmm what to say.....hmmmmm.....ummmmm...uhhhh...lets see...hmm...oh...wait..hmmm...
yeah iono im never in a blogging mood. ooh speakin of moods
my current mood is effing sleepy but i dont want to sleep because i have to wake up for tutor at 9...IN THE MORNING. hail no i say, haaaaail no.
i think im goin to knotts tomorrow though w/ my broho, cuzbuz, and michael. haha i have no name for him..broho's amigo? ANYWAYS MOVING ON
gaad this is such a lame ass entry, i think i should just shutup and sleep
BUT NO i aint done. =)
hmmm i was just gonna do a survey but i couldnt find any good ones =/ i guess i'll do those number-people thingiemajigga

ahem..
1. OMIT
2. stay gold ya'll
okay enough of that

im pooped. this entry is a FAIL.
now for some parting words..make it a good day or not,the choice is yours
PREACH IT KEATING
hehe justmrskeating
i miss middle school, seooo fun and pointless
mmkay gonna bounce!
xoxo, gossip girl

(crystal jina lee) picture turned out cutes

november inspiration

<3


i wanna get back into art. i've been lazy

dear dumb diary

my human geo book is laid out in front of me as i write this
all this crap is basically anthropology and the idea of it intrigues me, but another part of my dumb brain distracts me to do something completely different and irrelevant like oh i dunno WRITING THIS BLOG. -_-
i've been pretty lazy with this, but blogspot is pretty much dead as roadkill so im only writing to myself. theres alotta new things stirrin up inside my little head so i guess i'll spill a few beans. sigh lets get this over with yeah?

Dear Dumb Blog,
so my tiny, little dream of going to Berkeley has been crushed into a million little pieces after realizing that they care more about your GPA than SAT scores and other extra curriculum. theres a really slim chance of me being able to get straight a's this semester with current grades of A,A-,B-,C+,UNKNOWN,C-,and another A. hah...hah...hah. i really cant call myself an asian anymore. i know im focusing on stupid shit instead of my studies but i cant slap myself hard enough to get back on track. i should be thinking about GRADES,TESTS,STUDYING,AND PRACTICES but what im really thinking about are BOYS,BOYS,BOYS,MAKEUP,CLOTHES,MUSIC, AND BEJEWLED.
bejewled is my crack these days, i think the sound effects is what really gets to ya. current score: 129,500. oh wow while i was checking my score i saw michelle just get the 250K medal. i must beat her now. ok i need to wrap this up and study chem and human geo at least until 11:30. mmmm water polo tryouts are this friday and monday, i still need to get my physical done! i've been procrastinating that little 20 minutes time at the doctor's since like january of last year. what else is new...well i have a teeny new crush on someone, but its not gonna go anywhere. believe me. i have the worst luck with boys that i actually like or have a crush on. WHATEVER. i dont have time for this!
GOOD DAY LA

BORED

on the verge of making a tumblr, but i'll probably abandon it like my xanga.

holla!ween

i love halloween, its thee start to the holiday season
and im gay so i made a playlist for halloween =)

For relaxing times, make it Suntory time.

i need some suntory right about nah.
i had a singing sesshh with karan today and it wiped me out. i have no idear why. these days singing isnt the same; i've lost my voice
seeoooo tired. this whole day was tiring.
-slept late
-woke up early
-took my psat
-went to milal (ended up getting sharon on her period.-_-)
-karans houze
-fall revival part two



i just want to sleep and wake up to the sun instead of my cellphone alarm

HOMECOMING<3 !

not.
hehe yeap i didnt go of course cause im too damn lazy!
plus all the dresses, the make-up, and the corsages dont interest me yet.
i want pictures though! i cant wait to see you guys all dolled up and posing for little wallet sized glamour shots.
and heres all this stuff i've been waiting to say but i got lazy:
To: Vivian Dewong
YOU GOT YOUR BRACES OFF?
COLLEGE BOY?
THE PHO....??? i dont even know you anymore stranger.

To: Crystal Lee
YOU GOT NOMINATED OR WHATEVER AGAIN??
HOW WAS HOMECOMING?

To: June Kim
PRINCESS.<3

and yeah i think thats it hawhaw
so fill me in with the deets girlys!

yeah so i spent homecoming night freezing my ass/ankles off and passing out programs for the milal night concert ft. lena maria. she's a swedish lady with no arms but she sings seeeoooo good, and this little korean girl named april was so cute and sang really good too. the concert and everything was pretty boring and it felt like hours, but i thought it was fun with the milal guys moses,steven,jason, and jaewon (idk if i spelled that right) haha i was laughing the whole night. i got a free shirt and its actually pretty good quality too. its the JUNKFOOD with the finger peace sign brand. i took like 4 but i lost them during the night so i came home with 2 =/ i really hate kimbab sometimes. its so unsatisfying.

and another random update.
i am so ucked-fay
my grade report
Orchestra-A+
Chem-C
French-A-
English-C+! WTF.
Algebra 2-A
Human Geo AP-B-
Waterpolo-A? i didnt see it but probably.
....yeah.
this is why im trying to buy all the stuff i want like makeup and shit before my mom sees my progress report. she wont be giving me anything until next year with this-______- i can already feel her kicking my ass, throwing whatever shit she can get her hands at me. WAHHHHHHHHHH. i really dont know how i got a C+ in english. its the only thing im good at or i can usually whip up some bullllshit for. holy shit. what did i get myself into. i know silvas gonna prepare me for junior year and on but it'll only help if i even survive from my mom's ass kicking. chem....i love science but it hates me. im going to lee's for chem tutor starting tomorrow and i hope i start getting some speedy quick improvements. its frickin expensive too!
God...please protect me from my mom's fury.

sighh and my perms fading =/
HAHA and today after church i went to cvs and i saw jason there! ahaha so random/awkward/foooney. he was wearing the same polo shirt from yesterday since hes going to the concert thing again bahaha. i told moses what happened but he didnt think it was that funny..=C oh well it was funny to me hawhaw

i would like to go into more updates and rants and thoughts about alot more things like praise team,school,my relationship with God, relationships,fashion, and stuff like that but i wont. im too lazy.

i think im done with blogging
















for another couple o' weeks. heh gotcha!
see ya wouldnt wanna be ya <3

who will I be when I'm with you again

That is why all the boys in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

the rents are fighting about stupid shit.
trying to drown them out with billie holiday and goldfrapp.
my life is sucha BORE, no words can express my boredom these days so....
im gonna update with random pictures since my computers allowing me.


























oh canadaa


back in the stickam phase


hahahaha i just really like this picture of karen chichi


7th grade pee-ee





cow.


jamp!


my tyra banks forehead


tammy and the tammettes...ahaha


hulk SMASH






bebe jordan


mother






I LOVE HERR












our postures are full on ahjussi status


yummerz



scabbers



buncha random pictures

CURIOUS? by britney spears

FormSpring - HTML Form Generator

ask away! go crazy!

how should i end this?
kay bai