the end is never the end

since i decided to click "new post" i pretty much made it clear to myself that i was not going to do my chem homework tonight and thats final.

my mom just called from san diego aka the whales vagina to tell me that she left some galbi in the fridge, but no instead i headed for the pantry and opened up a can of kickass ravioli and stuck it in the microwave for 5 minutes. aaand you probably dont really give a shit right? haha that was pretty pointless to write but WHATEVZ MY BLOGSPOT.
so if you're wondering where in sam's hill i've been lately well hate to break it to ya but i havent been paartyin or doing something COOL instead i've been here aka in my little yellow cottage, livin it up,staring at the computer, procrastinating any shit related to academics, or at a polo game/practice. i've been mostly reading people's blogs rather than updating my own and left it to die. alas, i am back to feed this blog at least a good christmas meal. ho ho ho
aria picked me up from wp practice today and after tutor took me back home via her friends. i think i've directed people driving to my house like 5943059034 times since this month shit yo but honestly i like being drove around not worrying about gas or anything. plus i barely even know how to get to my own house and have to rely on familiar surroundings to guess my way around to me casa. HAHAHA i just remembered i couldnt even tell my right from my left when moses drove me. fuuck...
at this point i am feeling pretty relaxed knowing that tomorrows a mini-day and the last day before winter vacances, but im pretty stressed out at the thought that i'll be at school until at least 7 P.M for lo and behold, water fuckin polo. right, so honestly im not really LOVIN polo but i dont completely hate it either. im not getting a tan or losing weight but i am getting (hopefully) better at this sport and bondin w/ the girls and have the pride of being part of a team. still it has more negatives than ze postive:
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-HELL WEEK DURING WINTER BREAK -i dont get to feel that satisfaction when the last bell rings
-i dont get to hang out with errrone after school in the front
-i dont get to just randomly head to the village or something
-i look like shit after i get out of the pool
-normal practices end at 4 usually
-i go home ready for a nap, not to start my effing homework and study
-right after i lost all those calories during practice, i devour enough food to feed africa
-i have wet towels and a suit when i come home and i have to wash or dry it everyday
-fridays and saturdays are taken over by tournaments
-game days go till 6
-no time for boys and all that fun stuff
-im tired as hell
-i suck at wp and i dont think coach cindy even sees potential in me
-im not aggressive enough for this damn sport
-the opposing team always have the heftiest girls i've ever seen
-even if we end early when school lets out, i look like shit anyways and lose my confidence to talk

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-lunch on block day wednesday is chillllllll cuz after the bell rings i take my sweetass time getting to the pool
-after 5th period i roam around
-when i dont swim, going out with vivian and her audi to get boba or have a 5 minute sleepover or something
-team sweaters and shit
-hanging out with the girlys
-i can label myself as a jock even though im really not, im probably either a cool asian or an art freak...or desperate wannabe
-the exhilaration when you swim your first 25 and its super fast

so i ordered my backpack and accidentally chose priority shipping so it came in like 3 days. i am a dumbass, from 6 to 10 dollars?? ugh..but whatever im glad it came, its pretty good quality and im excited to wear it out. im tempted to wear it tomorrow to school, but i wanna save it till when school starts again to go along with the whole new year, new bag, fresh start blah blah blah my current bag is too big and im tired of carrying this brown piece of poop. theres a hole in the lining and i lose everything small enough to go through the hole. and it smells like octopus cuz it got wet from the last game -_- but overall its a pretty good bag for a forever21 bag. you've been good, bag.

i ate my ravioli, but i want some galbi now. frickk i didnt even shower yet, yeah im that gross. i smell like pure chlorine. augh i hate getting into the shower, everyday i dread that 15 minutes in the shower, but after i feel fresh as a daisyy and ho happy jackie. its already 9:18 but i guess i'll shower then make some galbi and watch some tv and then clean my room up and get ready for l'ecole. fuckin hate school, i cant handle the repetition.

one thing that annoys me is when people dont know when to stop, geez i know we're just fucking around but there's a point when it gets too rude. and dont you get that im trying to change it up?? frick..

i think im going to enjoy winter break, but im not sure if i want the new year to come. im actually pretty scared for it, but im looking forward to my daydreams coming true haha i guess i'll welcome 2010 with open arms
cheers.